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[reznikolai]

@volkvolny NIKOLAI LANTSOV

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[reznikolai]

I don't love the monster. I don't think anyone should have to bear the burden of what I become. Sure, I've learned to control it, but I doubt I'll ever be rid of it.

You chose to anyway. To bear it, to love me.

Why didn't you let me do the same for you?

[solmate]

Because I'm not sure I deserve it.
Go be happy, Nikolai.
I don't have to be a part of it.

[reznikolai]

[She's right. Neither of them are destined to be a part of the other's happiness. If he's destined for happiness at all. But in this moment, folded up in the lonely dark and holding too many jagged clashing emotions, all he can think to write is:]

Come see me.

[And he fires it off before he can think better of it. Then a hasty amendment:]

Tomorrow.

[After all, the hour is waning to nearly three o'clock by now.]

[solmate]

[ Who is the bigger fool? Him for offering or her for accepting. This only will end one way. The path is drawn. ]

ok.

[reznikolai]

[They have that in common too. Incurable foolishness.]

Good night, Alina.