Why couldn't you just have said that from the beginning?
[ She is not pleased with his joking! but at least he's okay. Gwenhwyfar is wiping her tears from her eye. ]
Because.
[ She takes a deep breath and tries to calm herself. It doesn't work. As she speaks, she's still shaking and there are still tears rolling down her cheek. ]
I wanted to ensure that if anything were to fail for me, it would not fail for both of you. If nothing worked to calm me, then it would have no effect on any of you. If I were to lose control, then at the very least, I wanted both of you to be safe.
[ Who is the other person? She won't say.
She won't admit outright that she lost control, not yet. Her focus would still be Joric and Nikolai, no matter what happened to her. ]
It was made for humans. If it failed to contain a half-blooded demon like me, then it would never work for any of you. But it kept either one of you from losing control...
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[ She is not pleased with his joking! but at least he's okay. Gwenhwyfar is wiping her tears from her eye. ]
Because.
[ She takes a deep breath and tries to calm herself. It doesn't work. As she speaks, she's still shaking and there are still tears rolling down her cheek.
]
I wanted to ensure that if anything were to fail for me, it would not fail for both of you. If nothing worked to calm me, then it would have no effect on any of you. If I were to lose control, then at the very least, I wanted both of you to be safe.
[ Who is the other person? She won't say.
She won't admit outright that she lost control, not yet. Her focus would still be Joric and Nikolai, no matter what happened to her. ]
It was made for humans. If it failed to contain a half-blooded demon like me, then it would never work for any of you. But it kept either one of you from losing control...
[ She is actually relieved, despite her crying. ]