[Then, even though there are a hundred things he could tell her, a thousand, he doesn't know what to say. All he knows is that this isn't finished. Maybe it will never be finished. Always unraveling, always cracking in a dozen directions.]
When I was with him, it was like I was taking back control of myself. It was like confronting the monster all over agin. By owning all the parts of myself that I hate, I could rob him of the power to make me feel small. Maybe that's strange, but you're the last person who could judge me right now.
I'm telling you this because I've dealt with my own darkness that nobody could extinguish for me.
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[Then, even though there are a hundred things he could tell her, a thousand, he doesn't know what to say. All he knows is that this isn't finished. Maybe it will never be finished. Always unraveling, always cracking in a dozen directions.]
When I was with him, it was like I was taking back control of myself. It was like confronting the monster all over agin. By owning all the parts of myself that I hate, I could rob him of the power to make me feel small. Maybe that's strange, but you're the last person who could judge me right now.
I'm telling you this because I've dealt with my own darkness that nobody could extinguish for me.