[ meaningless, really, in the face of what happened. but better than the false dismissal earlier. it leaves less of a poor taste in her mouth. less bitter disappointment, more resigned understanding.
besides, there's a more gnawing thought in the back of her mind. a wrong she's committed, too, even though inej knows it isn't a wrong at all. nor is it a lie, just something she thought to be commonplace. ]
I told her she was dead, Nikolai.
[ it's stupid to feel guilty over something you didn't know, but she does. something she'll find peace with in a few days or so, once she wraps her mind around the idea that sankta alina of the fold is no martyr after all. but it just compounded everything. forget being queen; alina just wanted to live. ]
Saying that it wasn't your intent to remove her choice doesn't change the fact that you did. So what are you going to do to fix this wrong? To ensure it never happens again?
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besides, there's a more gnawing thought in the back of her mind. a wrong she's committed, too, even though inej knows it isn't a wrong at all. nor is it a lie, just something she thought to be commonplace. ]
I told her she was dead, Nikolai.
[ it's stupid to feel guilty over something you didn't know, but she does. something she'll find peace with in a few days or so, once she wraps her mind around the idea that sankta alina of the fold is no martyr after all. but it just compounded everything. forget being queen; alina just wanted to live. ]
Saying that it wasn't your intent to remove her choice doesn't change the fact that you did.
So what are you going to do to fix this wrong?
To ensure it never happens again?